Amira Hass : Otherwise Occupied A Palestinian’s Gift To an Israeli Soldier
To the Israeli soldier who, on Tuesday, December 8
at around 2:30 A.M., participated in the raid on the town of Bir Zeit
near Ramallah, you should know that Palestinian artist Khaled Jarrar is
preparing something for you in return for the tear gas grenade you threw
into the stairwell of his apartment building, the grenade he found
after he recovered from the burning clouds that spread in the enclosed
space of his apartment on the second and top floor, and choked him until
he thought he was about to die.
When he
was a child during the first intifada, Jarrar learned for the first time
what tear gas was when he expressed the opinion of many good people
against the foreign regime and threw stones at its representatives.
As a poor
20-year-old who wanted to pay for his art studies, he joined the police
in 1997, and after that Yasser Arafat’s presidential guard. Jarrar was
among the troops blockaded with Arafat in the Muqata’a in Ramallah in
2002. On March 30 of that year he was wounded from two bullets fired by
IDF soldiers. The bullets exploded inside his leg. To this day there are
some 20 metal fragments left in his leg: In the winter, when they get
cold, it hurts him particularly. Also during physical effort. So it is
impossible to say that Jarrar – painter, sculptor and filmmaker – lacks
experience in the ways of the occupation and its soldiers.
Nonetheless,
he says: “I was afraid to open the door since you didn’t ask me to open
and you were trying to get in like a thief, and I was afraid of the
M-16 in your hand and afraid you would claim later I tried to stab you.
So please tell me who you are so I can bring back your gift to you.”
A few hours after the soldiers raided his
neighborhood, Jarrar called me and said, “A soldier forgot something
when he was here.” He told me in rapid sentences what happened in that
short time that lasted forever, the way he felt it. After that he also
described in writing what happened.
He was
woken up: “Before I knew it their heavy boots were trying to kick in the
door downstairs. The sound of shattered glass broke the silence of the
calm night – when up until minutes before, families and students slept
in the safety of their beds, quietly dreaming of something better than
the scene before me.“
Jarrar
immediately called the Palestinian police to find out whether they
could intervene or help, but it seems he was just wasting his money and
time: “‘You live in Area B,’ the dispatcher said over the phone. ‘We
can’t do anything about it.’” Jarrar recorded the call, he noted drily.
“The sound became louder and my anxiety grew more intense when I heard
the sound of something small and metallic bounce around the stairwell.
Moments later I smelled tear gas and ran to the bathroom, the farthest
point in my apartment from the stairwell, and tried to wait it out. I
put towels everywhere trying to prevent the gas from infiltrating the
cracks, but it was pointless. My throat began to dry and burn and I
couldn’t see because of the amount of tears overflowing in my eyes.
Maybe they thought they could smoke me out, but what sane person would
come out voluntarily to a military mob hungry for brutality?” he wrote.
“It
seemed after awhile they had given up trying to break in and moved onto
the next innocent target,” he continued. “Although they seemed to leave
the building, I could still hear them in the neighborhood – so I sat in
the bathroom waiting it out. After an hour or so in that state, I
finally heard them leave – or at least leave my neighborhood. I opened
the door slowly and the tear gas assaulted me. With a towel around my
face, I ran toward the windows and opened them, hoping to air out the
suffocating gas.”
Jarrar
says he made his way downstairs to check on his neighbor, who was in a
similar state. “I walked outside to check on the other neighbors and it
seemed the soldiers were looking for Bir Zeit University students. Those
they found, they arrested in the freezing cold night. Those they didn’t
were given orders: Surrender to the [Shin Bet security service]
tomorrow morning at 9:00.”
Jarrar
plans on filling the empty tear gas grenade with olive oil produced from
the trees in Bir Zeit (which means the “well of oil” in Arabic). “I
will send the grenade filled with oil to the soldier as a gift,” wrote
Jarrar. “Yes, the soldier who broke the glass and threw the grenade into
my home, and who didn’t think for a moment about the people living
inside. What would have happened if there were babies, children or
adults there? And the fright he would have caused them? The same fear
that paralyzed me? I want to send you oil, so maybe it will light up
your dark path as a servant of the evil of the occupation.”
Amira Hass
Haaretz Correspondent
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